this town’s full of losers trying to get a piece of you

posted on June 23, 2008 @ 5:00 pm

Lately I’ve been searching for something. Some touch point. Some song. Some passage in a book. Something that would help me to articulate how I feel. This place between sadness and anger. These muddled thoughts. I can’t deny that I have feelings for you. I can’t just pack seven years into a box and put it on a shelf somewhere. I’ve tried. And yet I’m so fucking tired of your excuses and your arrogance and your drama. I’m tired of alternating between thinking I might love you and wanting to flip you the finger and walk out of your life forever. I’m tired of waiting for you

And on a rainy afternoon, I shuffled to this Blue Rodeo song on my iPod, and found what I was looking for. It doesn’t make it any less frustrating. It doesn’t get me any nearer to figuring this out. But it is a relief to listen to these words and know that somewhere, someone else feels the same way.

I hear you talking everywhere
Words on the loudspeakers hanging in the air
Everywhere

And I remember the words you told me too
This town’s full of losers trying to get a piece of you
You really think that’s true

How long will it take til you open up your eyes
I’ve been gone for years
You never even realized

How long?

In a corner of the world on election day
You watched your star shatter then fade away
Too many wasted days

With your eyes wide open a hand on the wheel
You looked back hard trying to remember just how love feels
How does it feel?

How long will it take til you open up your eyes
I’ve been gone for years
You never even realized

How long?

What does it take to let you know it’s all coming down
Don’t waste my time

You used to walk down the street like the chosen one
Everybody got your blessings; now they’re gone
Where have they gone?

Did I ever tell you what I thought of what you did for me?
Some things cost too much
Even when they’re free

How long will it take til you open up your eyes
I’ve been gone for years
You never even realized

How long?